One of the things I love most about staying home with these kids throughout the day is seeing their sibling relationship develop and Everett’s adoration for his sister. He wants her involved in everything we do. Just today, he got hurt from a door closing, and he sobbed through his tears, “I need Cambria,” and they cuddled and it made him feel better. Especially on our slow mornings at home, he stops to hold her, kiss her, hug her, rub her head, and wants to cuddle with her every morning in bed. He wants her to watch him play and dance, and sit right next to him while he eats breakfast and lunch. When he rides his scooter, he says, "Mama, turn her this way so she can watch me." He wants to build a fort and read her books in it. It is so sweet to observe. This will be such a short season of life where we get to spend all day, every day together, and it is beautiful (although I do look forward to the time where we don’t have to spend all night, every night together). These days, I find myself getting overly emotional about the inevitability of my kids growing up. As I savor our slow mornings, I think about how one day they’ll both be in school all day, every day, in separate classrooms, and they won’t get to hang out all of the time, and it makes me sad. Parenthood is so weirdly emotional and I tend to be an over thinker by nature, which I am finding can be especially troublesome as a mom. So I take a lot of photos to overcompensate for the anticipated nostalgia I will feel for this season of life, and it helps me to appreciate all of these little moments and fill my heart with gratitude for the present.
One time, while I was capturing their cuddles with my camera, there was this moment where he kissed her butt, because he loves her that much. Moments like that help me to get out of my head and to just enjoy the present. They remind me that the most important thing is that we have a lot of love in our home, that these two will always have each other, and hopefully the rest will fall into place.